Too uncaring to even put me down
I feel a particular coldness
In my bones when I think of you
And I have to shiver

I follow at your unconscious signal
Just another worthless fool
Who hates your guts
Just get lost, I think

You don't care about anything
Not me
Not them
Not yourself

But that's okay. when you die
They'll say false words
Tailored for grieving the loss
But I won't say anything

When they wail over you
Your face the calm mask
I will look down on you
And I will shed not a tear

And at night
You will dominate my dreams
And I will ignore you
Turn your Apathy against you

I will see you walking
Down the street
Different heights all the same
And pass you by without pause

When I look at myself in the mirror
I will see your face, your hands
Wrapped around my throat
I will  take an aspirin

You make me sick
I can't eat thinking of you
If I even remember
At least I'll loose weight

When you hiss wordlessly
in my mind, people will avoid me
And I will find it doesn't bother me
I follow my own path

I will go to your grave
Once
A holiday
I will leave you nothing

I will go to church
Wearing vampire fangs
knocking at my door
But the lights are all off

My pumpkin with your face
Smashed
The next morning
I will pick out the seeds

On your birthday
I will buy myself a cupcake
To commemorate
That you were never born

When I make my coffee
Black and rich
You will pass me the sugar
And I will put the lid on

I will see someone I know
They will avoid eye contact
You will whisper
They shiver at my presence

I will turn my back
If I want someone to hate
I have your picture
In my wallet

When I go to cross the street
You will pull me
A car will drive by
And the driver will wave

I will come home
Not as empty
When I moved in
I had a major headache

You will watch me
Silently on the couch
I will blame myself
Getting so angry at myself

I will shout at you
I don't care either
Why should I
The future is alone

I hate you
Your eyes tell me
I'm an idiot
And I will believe you.